Have you ever become frustrated in your quest for intimacy with the Lord? Of course He is here with us all the time. He said He would never leave us and so He never does. But there are times of drawing closer to Him, of seeking His face, of forsaking all other things to just spend time alone with Him. Sometimes when we try to do that we are immediately bombarded with the thought bombs of the enemy. Every distraction crowds into our brains until it’s a continual fight to keep pushing them out and focus on Him alone. Of course it’s a fight. But it’s one we must win to break through into the life He has for us. Remember that He IS the reward. Knowing Him, drawing closer to Him, spending time with Him is not only the goal but also the reward.
Let me share something that happened to me during one of those times. I had become weary of seeking and felt I was getting nowhere. Then finally I began to be aware of both realms at the same time. I was sitting in a chair in the living room but now I could also see myself walking in a forest. ( Have you ever had an experience like this and wondered if it was really God or just your imagination? And have people told you it was crazy? Don’t believe them. This is supposed to be a natural lifestyle for a child of God. We were created with this ability.)
Swiftly now the spiritual began to overtake the natural and the vision became uppermost in my spirit eyes. Sunlight streamed through the trees of the forest down to the mossy floor. Birds were singing and a soft wind was blowing through the leaves. Suddenly I was aware of someone else up ahead darting in and out among the trees. Startled, I just caught a glimpse of a man looking back over his shoulder. Making eye contact for a split second assured me it was the Lord. He seemed to be hiding from me! I could barely see Him as He ran between the trees and the thick foliage. But I knew it was Him and He was calling me to follow Him, to chase Him. Now my heart led the way as I ran after Him and He led me deeper into the forest. At one point all I could see was His arm coming out from behind a tree and His hand beckoning me to come. Still I followed, determined to go wherever He was leading and not lose sight of Him.
Finally He waited for me to catch up to Him. He took my hand and ran with me out into a meadow where we danced together in the sunlight. Then a troupe of angels appeared and danced with us. In the midst of all of this, Jesus looked into my eyes and spoke tenderly to me.
“This is what is really happening, My love. I’ve been playing hide and seek with you. I’m drawing you and calling you into places you otherwise wouldn’t go. And I’m pleased with your determination and persistence to follow Me even when you can barely see. Your love has captured My heart.” (Job 23:9, Song of Solomon 1:4, 2:10, 4:9 )
Basic lesson – don’t give up. Keep trying. The reward is so far beyond your imagination. The reward is Him.